But Doctor, I Am Pagliacci

I fool my friends into thinking that all is well
I send them cat pics and memes even though I'm in hell
Come on, just laugh it out
Quite the endeavor to work towards that goal
When in a competition of who's fucked up the most
I would win, that's for sure

Between damp iterations and amalgamations
I remain calm
As hard as it blows: Wind, fog or snow
I remain calm
No, I can't freak out, it's under control
So I, remain calm
I'll flail and loop through and you'll enjoy it
So I, remain calm inside the storm

I won't say what I mean, it might ruin my face
And if you search for a tear you won't find any trace
Let us laugh for a change
I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in my eyes
'Cause boys don't cry

Between damp iterations and amalgamations
I remain calm
As hard as it blows: Wind, fog or snow
I remain calm
No, I can't freak out, it's under control
So I, remain calm
I'll flail and loop through and you'll enjoy it
So I, remain calm inside the storm

I remain calm inside the storm
I remain calm